timberrrr

 Husband got me playing a new game that's like a city building thing, but with beavers. They are the civilization, so you know everything is wood-based and beaver-optimized. Though I guess they still build homes and farms, so not very different than human ones. Anyway it's all I want to do now, which is a bummer because I like having all the semi-clean spaces, and it would be really really nice if they were mostly-clean spaces instead.

Oh but a few days ago one kiddo was sick, and since we were planning on visiting family over the holiday weekend, she got a covid test. Positive. And the other kid that hangs around with her was trying not to feel paranoid, but was getting muscle aches and generally feeling poorly. This morning, a positive line within like two minutes. Dang. We are so covid-ed. It's kind of got me feeling down... I mean, second covid kid bawled her eyes out when she found out we had to stay home instead of having a fun holiday weekend, but now she and first covid kid are hanging out together so it's not so bad I guess. My youngest doesn't really understand and thus doesn't care, and my other non-covid (so far) kid is isolating so they don't have to miss school and friends. 

God I'm so down right now. I wish I knew why. Maybe it's just depression? I was thinking about my doctor visit but we just got a letter saying where I went for the appointment is no longer accepting our insurance, so it seems kind of silly to go get my blood drawn there in the hopes that insurance will still cover it, and then find another doctor to send the results to... 

Maybe doing the laundry will help me feel better. Hah. Laundry and sorting and planning a frozen dinner so it's not 6 pm and I don't want to make anything. Ugh. Listen to some music maybe. Read some depressing webcomics or overly predictable rom-com? I'm certain there's a movie that I've been meaning to watch, I can just never remember when I want to watch something. I ought to make my youngest a proper meal too... looking back she might have just had nutella for breakfast and is having pie crust and crackers for lunch sooooo whoops. Maybe if I eat some proper food I'll feel better? I bought a ton of covid tests (found some that were only $4 each!) so maybe I'll take one. I should wait until tomorrow though probably, so I can plan my week a little better if it's negative today. Still don't want to waste $4.