hi I think I'm depressed

 I'm feeling suuuuper blah this morning. I've had highlights, playing with my kids mostly, because they are super cute and funny... I feel almost like I want to do something, until I stand up and start moving, and then I'm like, nah, back to my phone. Maybe if I read my book? Anyway I'm trying to do something good for myself again... I guess I did make my baby mac and cheese so it's not like today's been a nothingburger, but I wish I had some energy or plan for what I was going to do today. I guess I probably should buy some groceries. Costco trip? I kind of want to make cinnamon rolls but also I don't want to make the mess or clean up the space enough to MAKE the mess. Maybe some classic rolls. Or cookies? Or maybe just a nap... Sigh. 

I've been trying to use Finch to kind of motivate myself, and I guess it's helped, but I have very little emotional attachment to that cute little bird friend. 

Why do I feel like I need some THING to turn today around? For myself, but also in the back of my mind I'm like "have fun with the kids! make magic! it's your mom job!!" which feels like a bummer. 

What if I had a snack and more caffeine? Maybe a shower. See how I feel then... and maybe read instead of social media when I'm on my phone. Or text someone real? UGH I don't knowwwww. I guess it's lunch time anyway, so eating and caffeine seems acceptable. Hmph.