feeling pretty worthless lately

 I don't know if it's because we need to get the house clean and I'm still not great at differentiating between my worth and my productivity, but lately I've had these moments were I'm like "wow, life is beautiful and nature is incredible" but usually end up around "I am worthless and a drain on the resources of the world." Which you know, is really a bummer. I feel like I'm letting everyone down and not appreciating what I have and can't be what I want for myself, let alone anyone else. Sigh. Today my muscles are tired and I'm achey again, though I did okay walking around walmart leisurely, and it was kind of fun planning a "subway at home" situation, but I couldn't bring myself to go out to a park and keep track of other people's children. Which reminds me I do have to take one of them home, eventually. 

OMG side note I just tried a slice of munster cheese, great value brand, and... yum?? I think I tried some in college but clearly my underdeveloped tastebuds didn't appreciate it because I feel like I could eat this for the rest of my life. Yummmmmy.