dear diary

I am a little sad today. Which is sad because it's the first day of spring break. I've been snuggled, played with my baby, cleaned a little, laughed with two of my older kids, had a cup of coffee out on the grass, I've been happy, I've been tired, I've been sad, I've been motivated, I've been despondent. I've thought too much about my relationship and not enough about which of the fun activities I actually want to do today. I want to set a good precedence for the rest of the week. But then husband said "finances" and "lower spending" and... now I'm like, do I really want to buy flowers if our finances are bad? Should we try seeds, even though it's April? Maybe we should wait for mother's Day for flowers. Take walks? See if we can work together to make something fancy? Clean the table to play a game? Farkle? Hmm maybe we can just ride the bus around town? Is that... fun? 

Anyway I guess I'll read for a minute, clean, get dressed and see if we can't at least walk over to a park or something.