Oops I'm sad

 I was feeling pretty good when my sweet baby woke up around 7, she was so cute and funny. But then she straight up stole my phone and started roblox and wouldn't get ready for school. And the clothes I put in the dryer last night were still a little damp (I did VERY DRY at medium heat!! normally that works). And my second youngest still has a sore throat. And my husband was arguing with my second oldest who wanted extra spending money for snacks on a field trip. And my husband might have a stomach bug so he's up taking a nap. And my youngest is supposed to do a fundraiser today where they get a t-shirt and mark it every time she runs a lap and I think she'd love that, but she still doesn't want to get ready for school and has been kind of mopey this morning (and after school yesterday, the driver even said she seemed frustrated). 

I keep trying to think back to last night - how I was appreciative of what I could do, what I looked forward to in the future - but all I can feel is disappointment that things have gone so wonky this morning and my ankle has been hurting and what's the point of making plans if they're just going to change and leave me feeling like this?? I mean... yeah that's probably why I don't make plans anymore, because changes like this leave me feeling really upset. I was so excited that we actually had clean clothes! But they weren't dry. I thought, I'll dry them for ten minutes while I get baby's things together (a snack for after school, refill the water bottle, find shoes and jacket) but then it was already time for the bus to come, because I am slow, and Alison wouldn't even come downstairs. The bus driver is so nice and was like "we can wait!" but... yeah she might not go to school today. I haven't committed though, I asked her teacher and their run isn't until later in the school day so I'll just let today play out a little. 

Ugh I was kind of thinking of going to Costco today. Picking up a few things. Second child wants to go to the coffee shop tomorrow morning and do "roll over" classes at taekwondo, which is probably fine, but third child wanted to go to a mermaid festival over by the coast. Except that she's still sick today. And tomorrow second child has a birthday party (and maybe sleepover?) with their best friend. 

Just did a little spelling sesh with my baby. God she's cute. Wanted to write down all the names of the Kpop Demon hunter characters (well, the musical ones). Perfection. 

Maybe I'll just set a ten minute timer and do just a little cleaning. Ten minutes in the morning and ten in the afternoon? And then I can read or play video games I guess. Sigh. Still kind of sad and tired though.