DO SOMETHING GOOD FOR YOURSELF!!!

Maybe I should listen to the song again, I'm not actually sure that's how it goes...

I can't tell if I don't want to do things, or I feel like I can't do the things I want to do because my child stole my laptop and I got a new video game. I've also thought about writing my story (which I may or may not still have a draft of, since we needed to wipe the C drive), and I definitely don't want to do that with my thumb. I'm pretty sure I type faster with two hands than I do with my thumb? (And probably with fewer errors, yikes I struggled just now.)

I'm SO TIRED, and like, achey. Maybe I slept weird, maybe I'm really out of shape so even walking around the park and Costco wore me out, maybe I'm finally getting sick (husband has had a cold for over a week now) - though I don't have a lot of face symptoms. Just achey legs and back. 

I'm pretty sure I'm going to make quesadillas tonight. Trying chicken bacon ranch again, since it always sounds SO GOOD. Maybe I need different cheeses though, and that's why it's never quite satisfying. I do like chicken and cheddar quesadillas. Once I thought I found the "secret" to getting the ranch flavor to shine, but I can't really remember. Was it a light layer on the tortilla? A dip or outside drizzle? Who knows! It's been years since I've made them. 

It's actually ridiculously sad how tired I am. I feel incapacitated. I DID do dishes, so that's good I guess. Really good actually, we didn't have many clean dishes. So now we have plates and bowls and spoons. I can even make mac and cheese. Yaaay. 

Meanwhile all I really want to do is play Bladur's Gate 3 (even though I'm kind of stuck right now), or maybe sleep. Tomorrow is new years eve and I've never felt less ready. Do we have snacks? Who knows! Maybe we should make a cake... Ugh that sounds like a terrible NYE snack though haha. We can play monopoly and learn to juggle with silk scarves. I might even try a puzzle. I have one unopened bottle of Martinelli's. 

Sigh I'm sad, maybe about feeling incompetent, maybe from this cute romance I'm reading where they finally got together but he needs to leave the country in a week, maybe because I want to play my video game.