the heart wants what it wants

I recently read a book about a teacher who secretly wrote a book on the weekends, I just started a book where the main character wanted to be a writer but turned into a teacher, and it reminded me of how much of my life I wanted to write... I used to carry around a folder with my stories in it, I wasn't big on composition books (though I had a few of those, too) - anyway, it feels like a sign. I've been looking for a project, and I was hoping it would bring in money but at least I'd feel fulfilled? Just need to claim my laptop back from my tween 🙃 I actually went through a phase where I'd start a story, write for a while if I liked it, or start a new story if I thought of something, and I actually still think about one of those projects. Not uh where it's going, just about how much I liked it. It's a book I'd want to read. But of course I'm scared I'm gonna mess it up. Fear of failure or something.