well... poop

Today doesn't really feel like it's going well? Like it's not BAD bad, but also there's a bunch of little things. Ugh. Maybe if I took a nap I'd feel better - maybe I just feel terrible because my 5yo started playing on my phone, in bed with me, at 5:30 this morning. 

My husband found ants in our mud room - so they could be coming in through the garage, or they could be coming from like our crawl space or something (I know literally nothing about our crawl space, except where the door is). Anyway he's distressed about it, and I'm frankly too tired to care when our house is such a mess all over, and I think I took it too personally when he said he found the ant problem "disgusting." I really can't let go of that word. And then my 5yo had an issue at the end of the school day where she wandered off on her own to the transportation vehicle, and the driver was freaking out about it (understandably) because she won't be here for a few weeks starting tomorrow, and she's worried our kid could get lost. In a different city. So like, I'm trying not to freak out about that TOO much, since generally she stays out of the roads, but also she doesn't talk, so if she gets lost, she can't even tell anyone her name. Waaaaah I'm crying just thinking about it. 

And THEN I'm planning on taking another kiddo to their taekwondo class, and they chose the latest time, and come to find out there's an event going on tonight so that particular class is canceled. Of COURSE the one time we don't go earlier, it's cancelled. We didn't go yesterday because Hair Cut, and only made it once last week... because... first day of school stuff? So they're supposed to go three times this week to make up for it and I'm not even sure we'll make it twice. And belt graduation is around the corner but I'm not sure they qualify unless they go all this week. Which would actually be the SECOND belt graduation they've missed, and I don't love it. Maybe I'll just encourage them to practice poomsae since they can't do class..... I noticed there was a parent support type group for families with disabilities in the school district tonight, but when I first saw it, I was already planning on taekwondo with the kiddo. So I'm not really sure after a shit day that I want to go be sociable with strangers. I might recognize a few of them, but technically my disabled kid is going to a different district anyway. Though the focus might be 504s, which I've considered for my autistic kids... ugh but also I guess we need to eat DINNER so maybe I'll just do that and then focus on living. 

Getting through today has been so ANNOYING. UGH.