Dear Diary

 I wish this were my therapist. Or a friend! But we use what we have I suppose. 

I honestly should just go to bed. But. Whatever.

There's SO MUCH!!! Why?? Tonight was supposed to be an open house. It feels like we just did back to school night, so I didn't feel toooo much guilt skipping out, but I do a little. Thursday there's a "parent talk" support group, it's a once-monthly thing for the DHH families. I even have the option of in-person with child care or remote attendance! But I just... really don't want to. I do, I feel like it would be really good. Maybe I'll have my husband attend and fill me in. Wah. And then we have a day off coming up - for three of my children. But child #4 has a special assembly that day and so maybe we'll have the family go. Or just one of us. There's so many fliers and programs and field trips and it feels SO overwhelming - probably the tired thing. I keep forgetting, not only am I recovering from a couple nights ago, last night when kiddo came in to sleep, I was sooo hot and sweaty, so I had to like crawl out of the covers (she sleeps on the edge of the bed, so I'm kind of in the middle of her and husband). And naturally I couldn't sleep for a while after that. It's ADVANCED tired. 

Anyway, kiddo also refused to go to school today so I really do need to put her to bed so maybe she'll get enough sleep and wake up in time for school. I was willing to take her late, actually, but she just never let me get her dressed. Poor kiddo, I can't say I blame her, her school days are soooo long. 

GOD I'm tired. Woe is me, boo hoo, I wish I could go to sleep first.