disappointment

We're going through some stuff and I'm totally working my ass off - I mean... for me - and it's so disappointing to see in a crisis how he behaved versus how I had to behave. Major life events are tough. It's hard to place blame. I was socialized to take care of my family though, so even in crisis it was always do my best for the kids, show my love, get up when I feel like I can't, make sure they have food. 

Maybe it's just because I've done so much extra the last few days and today my head really hurts (I can kind of ignore my body aches and pains, but this headache is pretty rough). But. 😤 It's tense for me.