opening my throat

Do I believe in chakras? Not really. But I found it intriguing that a throat chakra is linked with communicating, and guess where I feel my anxiety? Also guess what one of my biggest struggles is?

And hey, journaling is supposed to help, to let me hear my own voice, to trust myself and get to know myself. I love it. I'm supposed to be going to bed but I got a little gem about intuition on tiktok (intuition is a feeling throughout the body) - and I remembered how this morning snowy roads made me just panic but really that might have been my body telling me I really didn't want to go. 

I wonder if I was nervous too because it was Sunday? And my parents are all religious and I'm hiding that side of myself from them? (I don't want to hurt their feelings/ruin my good girl image/trigger guilt (that is not my fault but the church's but I know they will feel it bc my mom has talked about guilt when other siblings left))

Anyway. Tonight I am feeling very tight in the throat/esophagus area, which I believe is my anxiety signal. Fortunately I finally have therapy this week! Hooray! Maybe next time I'll try three weeks. Or two and THEN three... 😬 Anyway, just a couple thoughts I wanted to get out before going to sleep, love myself and my communities ❤️