Therapy notes

 Today in therapy we talked about discussing hopes/goals instead of criticisms (yay!), FLY lady and getting the kids involved with chores, even if they're very poorly done, possibly focusing on one area of the house a week to tackle some of the details and possibly setting up a kind of routine. Tiktoks on moving from traditional/authoritative parenting vs newer, non-punishment parenting. Since I like tiktoks, let's take the time to learn! Love it. Maybe I can become a healer, in my own realm. Love that for me. Haha. 

Anyway, I have one main focus but I wanted to write it down in case I have the memory to actually address it at a later time. The cleaning is to help learn to accommodate myself and lose guilt over house cleaning, since I've felt lazy about it for a long time. Learning to do little things that eventually add up. But the hopes/goals are about trying to accommodate my conflict-avoidant personality while still feeling connection and addressing personal issues so we can find joy right now. Hopefully, little by little, I can find my way out of wherever it is that I am and become the vision of myself that I COULD be. 

It's nice though... I feel a lightness after therapy, and I'm kind of used to the lightness feeling and (maybe too much) hope, but it's been a while since my two good days and it's nice to feel it again. Maybe it was therapy that triggered my good days?? Oooh I hadn't considered that. Taking an active role in my health, being mindful, it might have been what did it. (I talked to my doctor to change my meds, saw my therapist the next day, and a few days later had GOOD DAYS!! - so maybe I'll have good days soon??) I'm even a little motived RIGHT NOW, to do things like dishes and walk through the grocery store (I should probably do a pickup but I might not have enough time before school is over). We'll see I guess! Baby might even like going out? Maybe I'll make a paper list in case she confiscates my phone. Heh.