a new day... probably

I'm supposed to be trying to communicate my hopes and I haven't really been doing it. I think I've expressed it before, not I cycle through wanting to build what I have and wanting to burn it all to the ground and I'm afraid I'm in a burn it down phase right now. Makes it hard to build up hopes and dreams and things.

My sister and I had a couple short solo conversations - she's BEEN THROUGH IT recently 💀 and I said "sometimes I want to burn it all down" and SHE said "MEEE TOOO." So. At least we're kind of on the same page there. 

I actually feel like a lot of people are struggling right now. It's JANUARY, there's wars, genocide, impending Presidential elections with horrible candidates, everything is expensive. 

So anyways. Maybe I should focus on a different aspect. I think I was hoping to make this week laundry week, and heaven knows I need it. It would be nice to actually have clean clothes for everyone. Maybe sort of put away. Maybe we can do hangers, some of the kids prefer hangers.

I also want to do a little "mopping" party where we dance around on the kitchen floor with towels, which means I need to sweep a little more. I did sweep some last week since my baby dumped cereal on the floor. 

My head really hurts today though. Maybe I'll take some Tylenol and placebo my way to less pain 😭 

It's a very Monday Monday today.