Not So Hangry

I've eaten a little. I'm less grumpy for sure. A little more relaxed but also strangely anxious? I saw the assistant director mentioned in an email a few days ago and I think it has driven up my anxiety again 😵‍💫 We still have at least a month, maybe two, before we have our meeting but I'm not sure if that's good or bad - good because it's not now, bad because it means I have more time to think about it. 

I'm still so worn down. I ache, I'm sad, I'm guilty, my tummy hurts, and I think I didn't eat enough food. I don't want to do anything. I want to go to bed but I don't want to have to get through tomorrow. (We have girl scouts and I might actually try to go to the school board meeting, since it's so close. Though maybe not, if I'm feeling like this.)

Ah, I just realized I never renewed my volunteer application for the school. Not sure if or when I'd be able to (swim club next term??) but it'd be nice to be prepared. 

My kid was playing on my computer earlier and I forgot she didn't plug it back in... and she probably didn't turn off her game either. I'm blogging on my phone, which DEFINITELY means I'm not doing great. Gah my brain. Behave please?? 

Maybe I'll take a nap while the baby is in preschool tomorrow 😴